meet-the-parents session sucked big time i tell you. i know i did badly but i was being yelled at by my dad. Mr Lim told my daddy that i might retain and he got a shock la! crazy. i know i did very badly,it's demoralizing enough please. and my dad came home yelled at me and stated 3 points(duh i cried!)

• a good environment for studying(i'm not studying at the basement anymore,now it's the living room) which i think it's rather good!:D
• target setting(haha i guess i was too ambitious but i aimed for my l1r5 to be a 9?!) i dont really give a damn.
• tuitions and more assessment books(just kill me okay!) :F

okay so then i just had free flow of tears and was feeling quite bad about everything. he was like,"i didn't expect Valerie's English to be so bad!" i was like hello?! who will ever get an A for English like me. And my Chinese deproved. bloody hell. the worst were the comments i tell you, that made me really cry: Wei Ling(i don't know why) ought to spend this semestral break to really catch up with her work. it really meant much more studying! ): actually I've loved studying but my grades really made me lose interest in studying,seriously.
Ass,and my dad's target is like to get top 10 position in class,top 25% in standard so that i get into JC,and finally uni. and while crying, i was like, WTH, that 's quite far ahead la.
i'm tired edit tomorrow.
i miss the person who gave me this! ):
love,
val



8:32 AM

hey:D i just realized there are actually many things happening in a day,to all kinds of people. even to people who do not usually voice out, keep things to self and stay mum about everything,they also have different feelings. a good example is wenhui. i don't understand what is really happening in her class, all the disputes and stuff cuz we are of different classes. like her, as a soft-spoken person in the beginning, people get angry with her just for the most minor thing. and of course feeling really hurt, a person with feelings will definitely cry la. but not only that friend did not comfort her, she said that she was crying out of sympathy. i mean, what is your problem?! people have feelings too! she's your friend la. you should trust her more than anyone else and you still malign her for gaining sympathy!this is really too much D: wenhui, don't be too sad,just put these things behind you and just leave this things to God okay! :D i'm sure God will protect you from all dangers and harms. today is a screwed up day,absolutely. MEET-THE-PARENTS.and the first comment i received is your results are bad): i have no idea why i'm doing so badly this year! I've really tried my very best but nothing helps. :/ what ids going on?! i promise to study really hard this holidays and not too much play, i promise! ):

cheer up wenhui, ILY!<3>

oh i think we should have a guzheng clique chalet! what do you think of it? :D wenhui's suggestion.




love,
val



10:33 PM

hello wen hui ._. says:
I READ MAMA!
VAH-LA-LEH says:
OKAY PAPA!
VAH-LA-LEH says:
hahaha
hello wen hui ._. says:
no problem granny!
VAH-LA-LEH says:
STOP IT GRANDPAPA!

FUNNY! I HAVE SUCH GREAT FRIENDS LA, MY GUZHENG CLIQUE MY CLOSEST FRIENDS! :D haha they knew i was pretty upset yesterday and ruyuan and wenhui actually wrote a post just for me! it was really meaningful and made me really overcome the sadness! haha love y'all! :D i shall post on what they said in their blogs.
RUYUAN:
Valerie don't be sad :( Okay I know I'm repeating what's above, but I don't know what to say.
I'm not good at comforting people.
You said you think you don't treasure friendships, but think carefully.
If you don't treasure friendship, you won't be feeling this way right now.
& always remember, I will always be your friend :D, even though maybe I'm not as nice or whatever. But I will be always there for you, unless you don't want me lah, but I hope not :)
Friends always come and go, but memories always stay in your mind.
Remember the good memories you have with her, and be glad that you have once a friend like this(I'm not saying that she's not your friend anymore :)).
And you can always IM her:)
Take note :

Don't cry because its over, but
SMILE because it happened.

Sorry I have to repeat this,
but in life, sometimes, we have to let go.

WENHUI:*it doesnt allow me to copy and paste* haha but in conclusion she told me that these are all in God's plan.

THANKS YOU GUYS!<3>
love,
val



4:21 AM

got the news that she is leaving soon and i was pretty upset. i wanna cry but i'm holding back my tears,considering that i'm not close to her anymore and so even when i cry, who cares? haha through this years of friendship i only have a few pictures of you. so i hope you'll just accept that i look really ugly! i really dont want you to leave, just stay for God's sake alright! i know we had many quarrels in secondary 2, but i realised you'll only start to cherish things when you are about to lose it! can you please come back soon(
i know it is migrating but i will really miss you) please dont leave! ): i dont know why, i have a sad feeling, and memories start flashing back every few seconds! i really hope that you'll not forget me and still continue to stay in touch. D:
STEPHANIE JEAN I LOVE YOU <3 style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">

love, val



5:49 AM

hola. i'm here again:D maybe i shan't post too much info about myself since there's someone stalking me huh. always view my blog for what. crazy! wenhui would say:don't be mad okay. i don't care about you already. haha went to the library yesterday to borrow more books and i can't believe i borrowed a chinese book(perhaps i borrowed it cuz it has a new cover page) haha,i hate reading torn and tatted books,dont know why. ruyuan ah ruyuan! did you just say your chinese isn't good! goodness man! shitxzxz getting report book this Friday ,and my term 1 results have indeed pulled my grades down really,badly. i really cant wait for hols la, i'm going to my cousin house and do the craziest things; going over to her house at 12 to play mahjong cuz mahjong has became our hobby, and we can play better than adults,trash em' all. oh i'm going over to their house to watch mary poppins in the middle of the night and practise the supercalif-docious! in the process of learning :O but yeah it'll be fun! i just like my cousin, i don't know why when we only meet once a week in church! i feel like catching a movie now, but i'm not sure if I'll have the time D: and now i'm trying my best to translate my composition to Chinese! I've decided to make a who-do-you-think-you-are-like quiz. so fun! :D la la la,huan le ji xiang, la! oh no, guzheng tomorrow):so you still think you can find out how i look like!

love,
val




9:01 PM

hello i'm here to blog again, since exams are over for a term:D omg, some people are just so moronic that i really can't take it anymore. it's either you are acting dumb or just really plain stupid(which i s not possible for you with high IQ)! annoying freak la! D: i don't care, maybe you should get out of my sight and don't let me see your face again! ass.
oh my sis and i invented a game, maybe my sis thought of the game and she should get the credit! okay this game is so funny,it requires 3 people to play it but the last person must not be aware. it goes like this:
1)the 2 people aware will hold hands and then sing to the tune,'make way for noddy';
2)release your hand and walk further apart.
3)last person will walk in between you guys! :D
4)LAUGH!
oh my so easy and it's such a fun game! today is another boring day for me, i think I'll just stay home and read, and maybe do a painting on canvas or watercolor paper! see first.

oh my goodness! i think waiyee is damn funny even though i didn't manage to witness the scene yesterday:/ she went to gift shop and firstly bought a chicken pie and told the auntie: wo yao qui da de(i want the biggest!)ironically,she is a petite girl with a wonderbelly :S then next,she went to buy --pie(i forgot what pie) then she told the auntie the same thing! haha it was so funny, and her many attempts to show us her tummy! crazy don't be mad okay!Deborah,my wonder cousin who does the craziest things with me during our childhood days and even now, our promise to meet outside grace's house at 12 midnight yeah :D and going over to your house for a sleepover! SO FUN!
love,
val



7:01 PM

hello! i've officially failed 2 subjects, both a bloody F9. oh yay, i'm quite excited to go for the musical with my guzheng friends! they are such awesomee people,also my closest friends. haha yay! :D guzheng today was okay, assisting is so boring la, but after that it's fun really! especially when you find out a FRESH plaster on the guzheng attendance file. damn gross but i think i know who's it is she forgot to paste it back on her wound after taking out! haha. i just realized that i'm very friendless maybe because i'm unfriendly, but guzheng friends are really great namely, wenhui(flowerbear/amir/guok), ruyuan(grassbear), waiyee(wonderbelly! :D), rhuenchuet(snow white), peijin(ariel) and tracy(jasmine/ truckie) haha okay i'm going to practise guzheng now, nut i'm talking to stephanie(:GO READ WENHUI'S BLOGGGG! mygoodness it's so funny!







p.s. sorry,tracy's not in pictures!



love,
val


4:57 AM

oh my! got back a few papers today, and as expected,i failed all of them. not all, but almost la. i wonder how my daddy would react to these awful results. i can still vividly remember the sms i sent him last term, To:Dad daddy, i didn't do really well this term failed 5 out of 7 subjects. sorry daddy, will work harder next term. as usual i got a scolding and was really pondering; why am i born stupid? gosh i cant take it anymore. i remember i was feeling very disturbed that week. but now, the horrible feeling is back cuz i failed once again! ): when am i going to fulfill my parents' wishes and do well? i think this day will never ever come la. however, there are some funny things that I've realized and saw today! :D like how ugly a guy is when he keeps insulting my friend. ewww he's is worse than a shit okay. who is he to comment my extremely pretty friend! ASSHOLE LA! go and die! :F off to play my guitar and perhaps, guzheng? most probably not la, i'm lazy.

love,
val



1:28 AM

hey just came back from guzheng, really really tired. damn, i failed my add-math, once again! >:( I've just realized i have never pass a freaking add-math before la. so, i don't bloody care anymore. I'm quite sad i cant play guzheng very well, or i should say i cant play at all. i can't even memorize a single shit. haha, finally I'm freeeee tomorrow my only free day of the week. what should i do then? haha just watch television the whole day la. :D oh, greatables is nice la, it's a sweet by the way. oh anyway, regarding what she did today, i shall just forgive her la shouldn't bear any grudges. oh well, i shall start copying chapter 1 of TKAM cuz ms gomes said that if you get less than 75% for a class quiz in term 3 , we'll have to copy TKAM from chapter 1 to31 :/ haha i just really a pessimistic one, perhaps that's the reason why i cant do well in studies. sighs, I'll just retain okay ):
i thought this photo will really make my day cuz my brother looked really cute when he was young! :D anyway i kinda miss him): [i can't believe i'm actually saying this]

love,
val



3:51 AM

meet Dora the explorer! :D
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY VICKY!
hola! :D got back physics and e-math paper today! i passed physics, which was quite surprising cuz i didn't really study. however, I've really improved a lot cuz i failed big time last term. haha my math improved but i failed by 0.33333! oh my i was so disappointed la, just wish to receive more marks when checking paper! :D haha i played a very fun game with flowerbear! so funnnnn! hahaha i was laughing at the moley guy my gosh and she claims that his mole is sexy! i was so freaked out la. anyway i have to memorise huan le ji xiang by tomorrow when i cant even play it properly la. i think I'll just die tomorrow. i think i 'll really really practise later:D

love,
val



3:20 AM

I'm so frustrated now la! played guitar for worship today but it seems that i have forgotten all the skills-the strumming methods. for the whole entire day, i really felt like crying! ): where the hell have my guitar power gone >:0 oh no! so i have promised to play the guitar everyday and pick up my skills again! i hate the feeling of not being able to strum properly! my gosh. it's just going to bug my whole bloody week. actually i was planning to buy a new guitar this holidays, but i guess i have to give up hopes until i'm able to play properly then i have the guts to ask my parents la. let me just stop complaining and TRY TO BE contented. haha :/ my dream guitar is actually a rather pretty one, i just hope to regain my wonder-power! :D
















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love,
VAH-LA-LEH



12:20 AM